So life has been very hectic lately. I have been in Florida since last Friday to spend time with my sister while my mom is on her very first missions trip without any family. She has spent the last 10 years with my sister as her shadow and has bravely decided to leave for 8 days to participate with her church in serving a community in Belize and ministering the gospel through love and deed to them. I am so proud of her and blessed to be her daughter, she is such an example of strength. Meanwhile, Alice and I are spending the week together in Sanford, having some good days and some less than ideal days but we are doing good and it is such a welcome break for me from the winter and from my usual schedule. The sun and the Florida air bring my a calm and joy that cannot really be described. I am blessed.
Meanwhile in the Ozburn world, we are entering our last two months before baby O arrives, we are in the slow but surprisingly smooth process so far of buying a short sale house, there are some interesting deadlines with that who process and Rob is trying to finish up this crazy semester he has undertaken. Things are moving quickly and at times I am so nervous that we aren't going to be ready for her to get here and that we won't have the things we need for her. Looking at budgeting for a new baby and buying a house is nerve wracking. I know that God will provide what we need exactly when we need it, and he is already proving that with this house process but I've been struggling so much with being able to just let go and prayerfully trust that this is all within His plan. He has really been working on me and I think us together lately, that stepping back and allowing His plan to be come together without our interfering will grow us in our faith, in our marriage and ultimately will give us a greater peace because, regardless of what we try to do His plan will happen anyway. We have been working out the details of the things we need to change and update on the home and figuring out all of the budgeting details as well. The last thing we need in life right now is a project. We don't have the time, money or energy with a new addition on the horizon, to be taking on massive DIY projects and endless honey-do-lists to take up our weekends. Our time will already be so limited with school continuing, work and baby that we need to be careful we really evaluate our wants vs. needs vs. extravagant desires that are not realistic or necessary. I always said that the two things everyone complains about in marriage (sex and money) were not going to be a problem for us and yet here we are having to have money conversations and learning what it means to really be on the same page and address the need to budget and compromise. I am learning that even these things are meant for our good and for our growth. I am learning each day to pray in faith that we will have the finances to make life work post-baby and that all of the essentials for the baby will be provided for us. There are so many little things that are necessary but I know that if I trust, it will be provided some way.
~Becky
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